parting

change is the only constant thing in this universe. part of life's process that is inevitable. thing's change for good or bad. people come and go. holding on and letting go...
at the start of the year, a good friend, apple, left the company. that was a change we were all expecting. as i predicted before this '08 will include some changes and movements here at work. now there's pau...
it won't take a rocket scientist or nostradamus to see her moving out as well. i mean she's apple's partner. so sooner or later she will be resigning as well. i was just so shocked that she announced the inevitable soonest. this was her email to us that really saddened me and the rest of the gang...

"JUST WANT TO TAKE SOME MINUTES OF YOUR PRECIOUS TIME
I WILL MISS YOU GUYS/GALS.. EFFECTIVE 03/27/08, I WILL NO LONGER WORK HERE. I HAVE SUBMITTED MY RESIGNATION LETTER...THANKS FOR ALL THE SUPPORT, THE MEM’RIES AND THE TIME WE SPENT. WE SHARED, LAUGHED AND CRIED. GOOD OR BAD. THANKS TO YOU I HAVE STAYED IN
THIS COMPANY FOR MORE THAN 2 YRS. I NEED TO LEAVE BECAUSE I
NEED TO FOCUS ON MY REAL GOAL, TO ACCOMPLISH SOMETHING IN
MY LIFE. I’LL BE WORKING IN AN ARCHITECTURAL FIRM AND HOPEFULLY WILL STAY IN THIS INDUSTRY. THANKS FOR THE MEMORIES, IT’S WORTH REMEMBERING THANKS FOR THE PRESENCE, FOR JUST BEING THERE
WHEN I NEED ASSISTANCE, SUPPORT AND ADVICE. WHEN I NEED
A FRIEND TO CRY ON, TO SHARE MY THOUGHTS/IDEAS YOU ARE ALWAYS
THERE...SOON I’LL BE FACING CHALLENGES AND I HOPE THIS WILL PASS
(WITH MY NEW JOB, I GUESS) AND I’M SURE THAT I’LL MISS YOU, ALL OF
YOU.."

and this nearly made me cry. pau is my wavemate here. we're closer than don. we've seen each other cry, laugh, grow, do some bitchy and crazy stuffs, and now this. yep, i have plans of resigning myself but not this soon. i just felt that a part of me was taken by pau's leaving. she's one of the reasons why i am still here in IBM. as what kalay said, life here is becoming very routinary, which is fast becoming puke-worth... sickening even. well that's how call center life is i guess... my superfriends here are a few good fellas that somehow alleviate this routinary life. there are some things in life that you desperately wanna let go but so afraid to do so because it is becoming so comfy that you become part of it. change is a word that terrifies us. especially me, all my life i have been so afraid to throw cushions in the wind. mainly because there are people--loved ones--who depend on me. it sucks almost all the time. but i guess better be the dependable one than a wasted bum. when i think about it, it all boils down to how far you're willing to go to make sacrifices.
to pau, wherever you will go, i --we-- will always be here for you. to thumbelina, the future architect who will help me interior decorate my house, carpe diem! sieze the day! i will surely miss you, l'il girl...