Friday, February 13, 2009

WHEN GOD TXTD ME

i've been slack from blogging for the past couple of days. the thing is there were so many random thoughts in my head. so many that i didn't even know what to write. i've been busy just reading multiply updates, reading blog entries (ron and jm lago) and posting comments.
then the fact that i was busy as well thinking what to give to my partner on Vday all make me more busy! my back aches right now from lack of sleep for the past days. and for slouching in my chair here in the office waiting for call to come in...

i've been meaning to post this entry way back. i got inspired maybe from jm's onelifetolive campaign. we'll actually this even started before jm's 30-day self-introspection thingy. i have this subscription which i enlist the start of the yr wherein i'm getting daily quotes from the bible and basically all that's GOODNEWS. i'm not a religious person but i have my faith.

"in today's world where multi-tasking is a way of life, it is easy to get distracted and lose one's focus. we may be involved in so many thing that depth and
i am not into that whole horoscope thing as well.. you know those serendipitous, coincidental instances because i believe everything happens for a reason. be good or bad it happens because it needs to happen. i believe in karma.. what goes around comes around...

reading jm's entry really opened up something in me that my relationship with God and with myself is weak. life is not a smooth sail--i've had my own share of shitty stuffs. said been there done that couple of times.. plans i concocted in my head is not starting to materialize and that's when disappointments came crashing in.

let's start with my failed QA application. it's in the past now. some people say i did not get the post because i have an attitude.. whether they see that attitude of mine bad or what, it helped me analyze myself more. i learned from it. the criticism may have crushed other but not me. i was pounded to the ground, yes, but this made me see my perspective even broader. for awhile there, i even put most of my mental energy there picturing myself of something that was never reachable all along. it got me demotivated and depressed for the past couple of days, then i got this txt:
"it is natural for us to aim success in everything that we do. however being successful may not be necessarily what our Lord expects from us. Winning isn't always what is best. Indeed, decisions that promote what is just are more desirable even if they may be seen by others as moment of failure..."

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